Sunday, March 1, 2009

And Atlas Shuddered

The past two months?

My mom nearly lost her job.

My grandmother has been in and out of the hospital.

My sister got married under dubious circumstances.

My uncle went in for a checkup and ended up with double bypass heart surgery.

My girlfriend in ATL ended up in a hospital in Mississippi that almost killed her because they misdiagnosed a heart condition she has apparently had since birth.

Hubbie has a new boss who has no interest in furthering his career, only covering her ass.

Hubbie put in for a transfer to a different job site, which she denied so that she can keep him under her thumb and maintaining her workload.

LittleMan fell into and shattered the glass from the giant picture frame.

LittleBird's dental appointment turned up a cavity which required a laser, cajoling, and a fuckload of money.

One of my closest friends showed me her ass.

Today? We got the phone call that Hubbie's dad has been hospitalized. He'd had a bit of leg trouble, went to get it checked out and collapsed in the ER. All we know right now is that he has multiple blood clots in his lungs. He has been stabilized but the prognosis is uncertain. Hubbie's got a ticket booked for Thursday, but we are waiting for tomorrow to determine if he must go sooner.

I have never been one to beg for comments. I've always felt lurk or show the love as you feel. But the heavens are heavy, my friends. I am swimming upstream in a river of shit and the waters continue to rise. I know we will come out clean on the other side, but I need a little love right now. Hubbie doesn't have the strength. My little ones are beautifully self-absorbed toddlers worried only about their comfort (as well they should be). You guys are all I've got.


Baroness von Bloggenschtern said...

Thank god for yoga - I'm stretching my arms as far as I can to give you a big, squishy hug - you know the one that makes you wheeze a little?

And I'm putting out positive thoughts to your f.i.l., and that your husband's Thursday flight is soon enough.

I hope that there is something, anything - however minute - that can show you that there is hope and beauty wherever you look.

Anonymous said...

Blood clots are no joke. My mother died from one . . .

Not to add stress, just to say that I can relate in a very personal way, and that my thoughts are with you and yours.

Breathe . . .

Tuli said...

My boyfriend's mother has been hospitalized twice in 12 months for huge clots in her lungs. She spent a week in each time while they dosed her on blood thinners.

Your FIL's case is not hopeless. Serious, yes. But not hopeless.

Thinking of you and your family.

RiverPoet said...

OK, you? Are seriously in need of some good karma.

My mom had blood clots all the time - likely it was undiagnosed anti-phospholipid syndrome, part of her lupus, because my daughter and niece also have that. They are no joke, particularly when they go to the lungs. A PE can take you out. I'll keep him and your whole family in my prayers.

I'm sending you some virtual hugs. Go out and play in the snow with the kids today. It will help relieve some stress and bring some joy to your heart.

Much love - D

Patois said...

I am sending you a boatload of encouragement to help you get through the river of shit. Go go go! Row row row! You're almost over the worst of it! You can do it!

Do I sound like the worst motivational coach you've ever encountered? No matter, it'll help. Really.

Blue Momma said...


You need to pack your shit up and come visit for a week or two!! I'll start preparing the "guest suite" now!

I hope all turns around for you soon. I imagine it is all seeming like just too much about now. Wish I was closer and could lend a real shoulder vs. a virtual one. Things will get better soon. They have to, right??

Betsey Booms said...

Talk about a heavy load!

Bloggy hugs, my friend.

restaurant refugee said...

Virtual relationships can be as real as we need them or allow them to be. So when you find the time to take that deep breath, find that inner silence, close your eyes and just be for a moment, do know that there are a number of people keeping a good thought for you.

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

I don't know what the fuck it is about karma or the universe or Providence or God, but everything seems to happen in lumps. The bad shit can't get strung out over a long period of time. Nope, it's gotta be piled on. Thick.

I'm thinking of you, I'm hoping for you, I'm keeping your FIL in my thoughts and prayers and I hope Mr. NATUI's flight to Sweden is speedy and uneventful.

I love you, darlin'.

Sherrie said...

Giant hugs and invisibility cloak off. The blood clots are scary, the same thing happened to my partners mom last summer. One minute everything fine, the next we get a phone call that she is in hospital in critical condition. The good news is she pulled through and is now fine. We just really do not know how long we got. But even though I dont know you I always think of you when I order an apple pie at McDonalds, so you know I am thinking of you now as well.

K-Mom said...

I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time. These words always sound so trite, but it really will get better. I promise.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and I wish your father-in-law a speedy recovery.

A Free Man said...

So, 2009 starting well, is it?

The thing is that up there in the Northern Hemisphere it's the tail end of winter, which for me was always a tough time anyway. It can't really get much worse, can it, sometimes we just have to try to hang in there and stay sane until that day comes when it starts to get better.

Hope it's soon.

Deb said...

Ugh! Hang in there. It is always so tough to be so far away from family when things are going wrong. I hope your father in law is o-k.

Take it one step at a time, it's all you can do. You are way over your quota for the things that come in threes.

Good wishes, thoughts and even some prayers coming your way from old Mermaid.

Not Afraid to Use It said...

@BvB: We have a beautiful blanket of snow outside. I am ignoring the ice.

@Tysdaddy: Thank you for not blowing smoke up my ass. It was a miracle he made it to the hospital, and things are good but can always be better.

@Tuli: Yeah, he's on blood thinners. Thank you for your thoughts.

@RP: Thanks for the hugs.

@Patois: I'd take you as a coach any day, my friend.

@Blue Momma: If I had someone to watch the kids, I'd be at the airport right now.

@Bets: Thanks honey. Glad to see you around these parts. I've missed you.

@Restaurant Refugee: Thanks for the sentiment. It really helps. I'm trying my best to feel the love.

@CMGD: And you hang in there, too. I know you've got your own shit going on.

@Sherrie: Glad our McD connection is still so strong. There's nothing like that first bite, is there?

@K-Mom: Not trite at all. Thanks for the good thoughts.

@AFM: I hope it's soon, too. And with your penchant for music, you worried me for a minute. I thought if he quotes me the sun'll come out tomorrow I might have to come down there and whoop some ass. ;)

@Deb: Ahhh. Mermaid prayers are the best. Thank you.

Gypsy said...

That's a hellova lot of shit to wade through, my friend. I'm sorry. I hope all turns out well. My thoughts are with you.

Joe said...

Well, the fact that he is in the hospital and in the care of highly qualified people is a good thing.

I hope good news comes, and things shape up for y'alls.

Caffeinatrix said...

If only my comment could magically make things better... Hope things improves soon.

RiverPoet said...

There's something for you over at my blog....Peace - D

SSG said...

woah there lady, things dont seem so hip-hop on planet NATUI. Hope all the illness goes away and everyone gets better. And that your hubbie can get a much better job he deserves. And your friend can suck ass cos she's an idiot.
Just remember, we all think you're super. You are funny, witty, insightful and make us laugh. You're a great mum. You take no shit and stand up for what you believe in.
So just remember that.

Crysm said...

I'm sorry you have had such a hard time lately. I really hope your FIL heals quickly.

random_mommy said...

Holy crap. I'm sorry you're getting so much to deal with at one time. Sending my best wishes.

Megs said...

good thoughts your way. i lurk on your blog because i relate to you. (i don't really have any close real life friends either) I know it must suck just dealing with any one of those issues. good luck holding down the fort on your own.