Thursday, March 20, 2008

The Pathetic Moment Award Goes To...

You would think after posting such a sweet video of my daughter that I'd had a good day.


That 30 or so seconds of sunshine was the only bright moment of a horrendous day.

Late last night, after keeping my shit together for the kids, I broke down and cried. I sobbed in the dark, telling Hubbie how lonely and sad I was feeling.

When he did not answer, I knew. He had fallen asleep.

Fucking fallen asleep.

I cannot think of the last time I have had such a pathetic moment. To have someone fall asleep on you when you are telling them how lonely are would be laughable if it weren't so painful.

I know he has been under a lot of stress lately, but it made me feel like crap. It did not make me look forward to today.


hollystar said...

I feel your pain. I also hate when people say that to me, but really. I moved to the bay area over two years ago because I was knocked up via a long distance relationship. It was a totally strange land with only my new husband and a couple of his family members around to entertain me. Long story short, it took me until very recently to gain my own local friendships. It sucked. I did lots of crying. Lots of bitching about how we needed to move somewhere I was more familiar with (that coming from the person who had just roamed the US for a few years randomly.) And I threw myself a shit ton of pity parties. It happens.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that, at least you have us creepy internet people. While we’re not substitution for the real life thing, we are shoulders to cry on and people to talk to when our husbands fall asleep freakishly fast thanks to some kind of low grade narcolepsy. (mine suffers from it, I’m convinced!) I hope you feel “at home” sooner than later!!!

krishanna said...

Awwwwww... I'm sorry you're having a rough time. **HUGS**

Betsey Booms said...

Come visit me.

We'll drink heavily and sing loudly.

I do it all the time.

Yes, I have issues. What of it?

Maggie May said...

Wow! Some thing led me to this blog! Very different!I will call again!

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

Oh, honey. I'm so sorry. I wish I could be up there with you. And? Feel free to smack hubby for me.

Chris in Oxford said...

In defense of your husband, um, I've done that as well.

Hope it gets better.

buddha_girl said...

That is SO NOT pathetic. It's real, sister.

There's nothing like being in a new place, a new house, new everything and feeling all alone.

Email me your address. Now. I have a care package to send. Hop to it, sister.

Momma said...

Aw! Dammit! I hate when that happens. I've had my hubby fall asleep on me, too, but damn. When you're already feeling lonely and lost in the world, it seems like the person you trust the most could stay awake with you.

Of course, if my hubby had to stay awake every time I felt that way lately, neither of us would sleep. :-/

I hope this was a better day, hon'!

Peace - D